The media and the news being a source of constant bickering is starting to wear on my soul.  I don't know if I can take it.  First off, I want to start by apologizing to anybody I have ever been in an argument or had words with.  Publicly or privately.  I simply don't care anymore.  It is all nonsense.  Everything that everybody is arguing about all the time is nonsense.  It is a waste of energy.  And I have decided to no longer care about it.  I am not going to engage anymore.  The media is ridiculous right now.  I find it important, that at some point, people begin to take note.  Do we, our generation, want to live in this type of world?  Where we are forced to ingest pundits pathetic and often infantile opinions about things that were never important to begin with?  At some point is somebody going to point out that we are flushing our lives down the drain?  That we are wasting our time.  That we are killing our souls.  Who the fuck cares about 95 percent of the stuff that we are forced to read and watch and listen and then end up talking about?  The only people that care are the people that are making the money.  By manipulating all of us.  All of you.  We are all being made into a bunch of suckers.  Hypnotized by the light.

Listen gang.  I know that we are a relatively small group of people that come here.  But let me level with you.  I know a thing or two about this game.  I have been to the belly of the beast.  I have a very unique perspective.  So thanks for listening in to my little rants on this tiny blog here.  Because at the end of the day, typing this stuff out, helps me make sense of it all.  I worry.  I worry that I may never figure out how to extricate myself from this hampster wheel.  This rat race.  This mysterious journey that we are all on needs to be more enjoyable.  It has to be more fun.  There shouldn't be so much anger in the world.  Why the hell is there?

I know many people are disappointed.  We get force fed this pop culture that tells us we need to live a certain way.  That we need to be the greatest of the great in order to feel successful.  Trust me.  I thought I was doing really good.  But then I have been beaten down myself, and made to feel very unsuccessful.  Even though I have accomplished things in my life that I could have never dreamed of.  Like hosting Saturday Night Live, Hosting David Letterman's Late Show, being on the cover of Rolling Stone magazine.  It's crazy.  I can't believe some of the things I've been so lucky to do.  And some of the crazy things I've had to go through in the middle of it all.  Like fighting cancer and winning.  Having my right testicle removed.  Having my guts cut out, and lymph nodes removed, and been debilitated for months and months.  And to endure ongoing physical pain.  And to power through all that, only to then be bitched and sniped at by some of my peers.  It is just embarrassing.  But it has forced me to think.  And I have been thinking, very seriously, about this herd that I have wandered into.  This rat race.  This place is pretty damn strange. 

So yeah I have now built a TV studio in my living room.  It hasn't been easy.  The technology is new.  The business model is in flux.  But I am going to make this fun.  Even though it isn't easy, and there are roadblocks, and constant frustrations.  I am going to keep on gang.  And I want to set an example here to any and all of you who have been paying attention.  Things don't come easy in this world.  But if you work hard and are persistent and stubborn enough to keep going, you will succeed.  It is the quitters who fail.  If you never quit, then nobody can ever tell you that you failed.  So don't ever quit.  Figure out what you want to do and do it.  And know even this.  When you make it half way to your goal, there will be those around you that insist you have failed.  And they will make you want to quit.  Not everyone wants to see everyone else around them succeed.  There are many people among us who applaud failure.  It makes them feel better about their own mistakes.  What they don't know is this negativity holds them back.  It has held me in back in the past.  And I struggle with it often.  Staying positive isn't always easy in a world filled with hate.

Lets have a good show tonight gang.  Whatever we end up doing.  Lets have some fun.